Cool

And I discovered it now,
actually not now, but some time ago,
I was thinking, is it person who are cool,
is more popular, more recognizable, more wide known by other?
is it important for one to be success?
is it crucial for one to know more cool people?
what is cool?
how do you define cool?
by the way they talk? the way they interact with people? the way they present themselves? the way they socialize, by all means.
So do people thinks you're cool enough to be part of them?
Do people actually look at your "cool-ness" in order to be friends/alliance with you?
Or some people don't actually give a damn on this so call "cool-ness-lization"?
But in this real world, in this world's practice that everyone faking everything, how cool you are represent what your level is.
So some people look at that and judge you.

And why do i think bout this?
not out of sudden, but it actually happened.
and i guess this guy only greet, talk to, or look at, certain people that are of the same level with him.

And i swear to myself, thanks to your ignorance and one day I shall make you kiss my ass.

Abandoned

Seems like this blog is abandoned by me..
anyway some little updates to myself.

New year New beginning.
I need to throw away all the negative thoughts in my mind.
throw away all the sadness, give it whether the people/things that is the root of the problem.

thing happens.
Sometimes it is really hard to ignore..
the more i tried to ignore, the more it came to my in the middle of the night, like wave in ocean..
I'm drown and its hard to breathe.
All i can do is cry out loud and it did makes me feel much better..

Good news is I can now let go of him, not 100%, but 50%.
it is an improvement tho!
but bad news is i've fallen for another one.
haha.
wish for the best, if it was meant to come it will come effortlessly.

Now I know, the most painful thing one can ever encounter, is
the person u love is hurting another person u love, and you cant do anything about it.

Now im 22. ( to be accurate is 21 years old and 1 and half month)
process of growing up, is inevitable and out of my control.
Somehow growing up for ur "heart" and "mind" is something you can control. and it is a decision that is up to you.
Some ppl are physically old but mentally childish, vice versa.

I rmb I started writing this blog when i was 18, and now its already the 5th year.
Time flies.
Remember the days, I set out with faith, I set out with dreams, I set out with passion.
It is now fading away.
I must't let time wash away my dreams.

Watched CZ12 yesterday.
I am so amazed by JackyChan despite what he did/say (had a affair n nvr recognize his daughter)
While watching the footage of behind the scene,
he got injured many times when filming,
still he did not give up, and continue the filming with his determination.
I rmb he says: ‘每个镜头都有可能是我最后一个镜头’
成龙的成功，不是没有原因的。
背后所吃的苦头，有谁知道？
他可以用失去性命的风险来换取每个完美的镜头，你愿意吗？你可以吗？
光鲜的外表下，在背后可是付出了多少常人所不及的努力换取的。

我真的有很多需要进步/学习的地方。

我要2013，成为我突破的一年。

Anyway, cheers to all my friends and family,
wish you all a great life, happiness filled and fortune 2013.
Safe and sound.
I love everyone around me.
:)

Stupid women

“If a man is really into you, nothing will stop him from being with you - including a fear of intimacy.”

― Greg Behrendt

Zero sign from him. 
That's why you should give up, stupid women!

because


 “Always be classy. Never be crazy.”

― Greg Behrendt, He's Just Not That Into You: The No-Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys

and,

  “Alone also means available for someone outstanding.”

― Greg Behrendt, It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken: The Smart Girl's Break-Up Buddy



:-) 

Time

Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day.
Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course?
Each of us has such a bank. It's name is TIME.
Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.
Every night it writes off aslost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to a good purpose.

It carries over no balance. It allows no over draft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day.
If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours. There is no drawing against "tomorrow."
You must live in the present on today's deposits. Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success!
The clock is running!! Make the most of today. 

我想，
时间是唯一一件上帝赐给人们最公平的东西了吧！
不论一个人多漂亮，多有钱，多聪明，
终究都会抵不过时间的摧残，
慢慢地老去，然后面对无尽的死亡。

The problem is, how to make use of the time,
如何在有限的时间内，活得精彩，活得快乐自在，和不带走一丝遗憾。

開不了口

You just shared this song of Jay Chou,
開不了口.
I wonder is this referring to your thought?
If is so...
I wonder who is her..
This song suits me too,
我們同是天涯淪落人嗎？

才離開沒多久就開始擔心
今天的妳過的好不好
整個畫面都是妳　想妳想到睡不著
嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣
還有在妳身上香香的味道
我的快樂　是妳想一想的微笑

＊沒有妳在　我有多難熬
〔沒有妳在　我有多難熬多煩惱〕
沒有妳煩　我有多煩惱
〔沒有妳煩　我有多煩惱多難熬〕
穿過雲層　我試著努力向妳奔跑
愛才送到　妳卻已在別人懷抱

＃就是開不了口讓她知道
我一定會呵護著妳也逗妳笑
妳對我有多重要　我後悔沒讓妳知道
安靜的聽妳撒嬌　看妳睡著一直到老

＋就是開不了口讓她知道
就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到
整顆心懸在半空　我只能夠遠遠看著
這些我都做得到　但那個人已經不是我

如果給我一個期限去忘記你

我不知道那個期限會是多久。

做自己

我一定可以做自己

最真實的自己

就算會受傷

也好過披著面具的我

被約束的感覺

很辛苦

世界末日快來了

再這樣下去

只會留下遺憾

I don't care what others think!

I AM ME!!

November #2

Last month is as interesting as roller coaster,

My mood was up and down, due to some events/ things I've encounter..

So i've join orientation again,

it's my second time joining.

and this time i was so lucky,

so lucky to got my wish fulfilled..

I've never dream of it happening! :)

Anyway, every good thing will eventually come to an end.

And I have to cope with it... I never wanted it to end..

and still trying my best to deal with it now.. :/

and here it comes, NOVEMBER!

now its almost mid of nov,

so fast and the legendary date, 21/12/2012 is getting nearer and nearer..

If the world is going to end on that day,

I have only one wish,

which is to .... him.

haha!

Its now week 4 of the semester,

time flies and so much assignments and tutorials piling up waiting for me..

however im still in a state of day dream..

AHHHHHHHHH

deep in my heart I've never wanted to wake up from this wonderful dream..

but its almost one month now!

I should not let myself 沉浸 in this cloud 9 and waiting for miracle to happen..

been to the disabled orphanage house and old folks home last sunday..

feel like grew up a lil bit and felt that im soo lucky enough to be born normal..

I hope i can do something to them..

like become a volunteer in orphanage house.. when can i realize this?

..

.....

........

been missing my kuk fass' so much!!!

haih its been a loooong loooooong time since our gathering..

EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE VERY VERY GOOD AND WONDERFUL AND EXCELLENT AND FABULOUS TOMORROW!!!!

YEAHH CHEEEEEERRRS!! :D

Red- Taylor Swift

Well Taylor Swift has never failed me,
Every time I listen to her new released album and I'll undoubtedly get goosebumps and addicted to her songs ,
recently her new album - Red is released.
and this song is just amazing.

Enjoy! :))

8/10/2012

8/10 is a monday,
Now im on a holiday and its getting boring-er and I always wonder why I'm sooo looking forward to holiday during school day and I actually have tons of plan to do for this wonderful holiday but it always ends up I wanna go back school!! and vice versa I know I will wish for holiday to come if I've started new sem.
人真是好贱啊啊啊!!
anyway,
On that day I went to meet my friend, Joyce and Corine at MidValley,
and the plan of the day is simple,
after I met them they will bring me to Mahsa College and tour me around in their campus,
and then we will visit pasar malam!!!
Its been really a while since my last visit to pasar malam (a.k.a night market),
so everything went well,
Joyce also intro me her friend, 4 nice young lady and young men. :)
We had our dinner @ SS2 喂食街，
I ate 四川担担面 for dinner, and I've always purposely pronounce it as 蛋蛋面 muahahaha
and all of us brought a shirt of same design,
which is the design of British flag ( its seems to be the hottest trend in this season),
and we walked and talked and browsed around for nice food,
When the time is around 8.15 pm we planned to head back, since we had finished explore every stall there,
and we are going to the bus stop to wait for the bus,
I was enjoying the taiwan hot dog in my hand while walking,
suddenly I fell down into a huge longkang that the height is almost same as me and my mind went blank,
it wasn't pain at the beginning the first few minutes and all I was thinking is I have to get back up,
with the help of my friend I am finally got back up,
and of course it shocked everyone that I fell into the big drain suddenly, everyone as in random people that were waiting for bus too.

And everyone kept asking me whether I'm ok or not, and I am actually fine,
only experienced some minor wounds and bruises,
on the bus everyone was really worried and I can see that,
I actually feel a bit guilty that like I spoiled the atmosphere -.- haha.

I get to experienced how does it feel to fell into the drain!!
I wonder if someone thinner fell and it would be less hurt cuz if she/he is thin so their size will not fit the long kang and there will be less chance that they will excoriate with the surface of long kang.

The moral of the story:
Never walk while eat or never eat while walk,
especially in the dark street,
and I had experienced some losses, which included half-eaten taiwan hotdog 台湾香肠 dropped into the drain.

I can be a 70 years old grandma though,
Halleluyah I'm alright. :)

Some random idea

Suddenly came out with an idea just now during yumcha with the gang,
its like a light bulb all of a sudden pop out of my mind,
a voice deep inside my heart saying: "this is fun and you should do it!"

So the idea is like this,
I'm going to do some donation to the orphanage,
but not like giving my $ cuz I don't have that much,
still, I can make an effort to help them,
by collecting every orphan's hand print,
and print it on a big piece of fabric,
and arrange it nicely or creatively,
then for every hand print I will describe it in a booklet,
about the child's story,
for instance, their background, personal info, and their wishes for the future,
then frame that piece of fabric with a fine wood frame.

so basically it might look like this,

or like this

then this will be sold to any interested public, 

the money proceeded from the selling of this frame will be donate to those child in need.

Woah isn't this a brilliant idea?

hehe any helper? :)