抗焦虑

最近有一个issue arise,

我发现很多人的抗焦虑指数没那么高。

生活在这些人的周围，

会让你很stress.

sometimes 只是很小事（小迟到，别人随口的意见，忧虑于不可能发生的xx事件，等等）

尽然可以让一个人如此紧张，担心，不安一整天。

对我来说，

未来的事不用担心（当然还是要努力）

控制不了的事情不用担心

不要去想太多有的没的

人生会多美好啊！

何必把时间精神浪费在对事情一点都没帮助的worries？

还是我太不care?

Sometimes "I don't care" is all you have to do to make yourself happier. 

Source: from people around me

LTNS

Hello my long abandoned blog. 

It's been a busy months and year and totally neglect this habit of writing blog.

Anyway,

No post might indicating good sign,

That means less emo events around me and I don't have to release stress and express view through blogging (my sole purpose of writing blogpost, so far)

Maybe I should post up my life events here too. 

To decrease my will for creating an Instagram. 

Welcome back my thoughts! 

Weeeee ;D 

Updates 15.8.2013

Again, living a really busy lfiestyle after my super short raya break a.k.a mid term break.

Seriously have no idea what I've done in the mid term break?

Ok all I could rmb was I went Penang happily and consume every food that appears in front of me and....

ended up having serious constipation after the trip -_-. 

During the trip we stayed at one of my housemate's home and, courtesy of her for bringing us around for food marathon. 

This trip very much reminds me of the gang, around 2 years back how we spent our crazy nights together and do random stuff ...which the memories will always be cherish! Therefore my advice is that young people out there please do as many random sh*t (not abusive and illegal of course) as you can so that when you gets older there's something for you to reminisce on.. Isn't that's what we do when we gets really old, sitting on bench at beach side looking at the dawn and reminiscing all the good old times eh?

hehe anyway,

and I duno why, there's always lucky events happen around me at times *thank you to the creator of this world*

Kun - this always happy-go-lucky cutest guy on the earth, and another close fren of mine, Hao,

where during one random day we went for yumcha and they found notes on the floor... RM50 they thought at first but when they opened it, its actually 2 pieces of RM50!

OKAY, you might say that we should pass this money to nearest police station or ask around who has lost their money BUT u know what everybody is gonna claims that its theirs (including the police officer , yeah i know I ASSUME) but its different story when you found a purse and I swear we will report if we found a purse .. ANYWAY YOLO comes first, so the 3 stooges decided to spend everything they could in a night (if you're chinese, you should know what season is this now) and according to some belief that those money found need to spent straightaway without keeping it overnight.. They said. 

So the three stooges went to get some cakes and sat in Starbucks while chit chating the night away AND also watched a movie with popcorn. WHAT A WONDERFUL NIGHT. and yes, with 10% of guilty in my tiny little heart with conscience.. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. GOD BLESS YOU. =)

So.....................

and I've been busy lately.........

ok, with assignments OMG I'm really bored with this - WHY do I have to tell people that I'm busy because of assignments??? It feels so lifeless and so not cool but the fact is..... Its really because of assignment. /.\

Please give me some really cool things to tell others the reason I'm busy like for example, oh sry been traveling to Europes recently, been taking part in reality show -The Apprentice , or I just got back from exchange program / oh yea cause I'm filming Harry Potter 8th series again . 

So....................

Got myself an Iphone 5!!! Weeeee Im a happy girl now!! After bearing with Nokia 3310 for some period and now I can finally...... acting cool with a phone in my hands when I have nothing to do, buzz my fren anytime when I'm bored, taking amazing pictures especially with their superb image quality, and I swear Im not gonna use Instagram. Sorry no offence but, I'm trying to avoid using too much social network media, and keep myself low profile =P and... also to keeps me happy with myself. (without seeing too much other's life is one of the way you can live your own life)

Grew fat after Penang trip and eat like nobody's business nowadays.

Its always a cycle which = semester , when starts of new sem I'd be eager to go to gym, swimming, jogging, and wanna look perfect, now its almost end of the sem, all I wanna do is to finish all submission on time but I cant do it without munching on snacks in the mid night....... and I know.. This is going to repeat next sem. 

Anyway there IS something excited going on..

Im renting a stall in my Uni's events,

and we're going to sell some drinks and food,

This will be a.... tough competition.

I just know that there are alot of vendorssss taking part -_-

anyway We will 杀出一条血路！！

and we're gonna eat our appreciation dinner at Shabu-shabu. Weeeeeeeee  =D

and andddd I'm planning my back pack trip to Cambodia next year!!

Im gonna witness the amazing Angkor Wat's dawn!! 

Weeee finally feel like an adult eh =P

Its always something I wanna do...

Anyway its still in the planning stage,

so lets hope for the best! 

PS. The best is yet to come! #positivityoverload

stupid girl

Finally a concrete reason to move on.

Tagged with a girl , celebrated birthday with her,
So uh-mazing and unbelievable,
and efficient!

So fast to get to her. Duh.
And I'm one of the person told you she's pretty.

This is a joke.
Thank you very much.

Cant help it

Meet you almost everyday this week,
got ups and downs,
so Im gonna pour it all out here..

Monday: talked to you in the library. As usual, I made the first move. I sat in front of you and ask you bout something. You seem happy and smiling all over your face, is that hallucination or wat? hmm =) Actually I just want to talk to you. Was thinking bout what I should ask/tell/inform you. Anddd you asked for my number. Should I be happy bout it? I dunno what it means..is it cuz we're going to work together in cf?

Tuesday: Knew that i'll  meet you in class. but you're alone, your friend absent. and you're sitting infront of me. You seems boring, sleepy. If your friend is here you'll be chit chating with him, maybe discussing pretty girls in class. LOL. So I borrowed friend's phone, open my fb, and search for your name, and you were online that time. (Saw you playing fb from behind). I was strike by a sudden urge of "courage" and became so bravee to pm you in fb. and glad that you replied me too. Chat with you until the class ended. and we just said bye in fb, instead of face to face. when i turned around you left the class already.

At night, you were there for cf meeting, wearing the same shirts, (me too). haha. but we never greet each other, my division head presented the intro, briefing.. and we were divided into division. You sat beside me. Everything seems normal. I talked abit, and intro abit...  But in fact it isnt, my heart beating like fast & furious! At first, he kept looking at my table, it feels weird and i was thinking maybe he wants to look at my notes and the scheme, so i pass him. After that he pass back to me. Andd he was still staring at my notes...... -.- omg and i just realize, his angle can view my..... (.)(.) ??!! ARE YOU A PERVERT???!!!  =.=

Wednesday (today) : So today I ajak few friends come out for dinner, one girl friend ajak-ed you, and surprisingly, you ON! wao... I've never thought of that. The dinner dint went up to my expectations.. (my performances) I would rate myself 5/10. haha. Its fun to see another side of you. Thats really cute and rare and humorous. Im still too quiet. I really dont know why. sometimes cant act like me. Where is ME?!!
A lil upset.. it dint turn out good as last 2 days. Sometimes you did asked bout cute questions, like who did I watch the movie with, and who i went with, is that even a little hint? Maybe you;re just teasing me and I've think too much again.
Dint get to talk much with you. Crap got la. And we dint even say bye. again. and I saw you sat behind during recital, and when we leave, we dint say bye, again. Triple damage.

So I know tmr we're gonna meet again. Lets just go with the flow..
I will not be having any hope as the greater the expectations, the greater the disappointments, and the deeper I'll fell for............

after all these, not to be perasan but if you have lil feeling for me, even for just 10%, i guess you'll make the move to chat with me, talk to me, figure any way to increase d interaction rite?

Yeah..
Maybe, I think too much.
It doesn't exist and will not happen.

Cheers to  myself for a better tmr and be a better person than today!!
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A very meaningful quotes I've read,
this describes what's on my mind perfectly,

To love someone can indeed be scary because you are essentially opening up and giving yourself to a person, you are giving them power over your emotions. When you open up to someone like that, it is easy to get hurt, and often that is the case. Getting hurt by someone you love is probably the worst feeling in the world. But what is important to understand is that people are just people. Often people do things without understanding what effect they might have on another person. 

and another one,
That look someone gives you when they fall for you, is indescribable. To be cherished by someone is an incredible feeling. Having people in your life that you can trust to be there should you need them, will give you irreplaceable confidence, calmness, maturity — and most importantly — happiness.


=) cheers!

A super addictive song that I just found out from this amazing singer, Marie Digby.

There's a light in the dark
Where the sky splits apart
Where the stars find a way
To shine through all the spaces in between
Here we are face to face
All alone in this place
And the night is finally coming down to you and me

Tell me where you've been hiding?
Oh, I want to know
You're my silver lining covered in gold
Tell me what am I feeling?
Well, it's hard to explain
Like underwater breathing
Swimming in rain

Oh, oh...all I really want to do, do
Is fall even deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing, breathing underwater
I'm weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I'm breathing, breathing, breathing, underwater

I wanna fly through the blue
Lake on the bottom with you
Getting lost in the waves
Let the world slip away
When nobody can find us

I don't want to be saved
Leave it all behind us
Make an escape
Tell me what am I feeling?
Oh, it's hard to explain
Like underwater breathing
Swimming in rain

Oh, oh...all I really want to do, do
Is fall even deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing, breathing underwater
I'm weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I'm breathing, breathing, breathing, underwater

Wanna go to the edge
Wanna dive in again
Here we are face to face
All alone in this place
And it's finally coming down to you and me

Oh, oh...all I really want to do, do
Is fall even deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing, breathing underwater
I'm weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I'm breathing, breathing, breathing, underwater

In a blink of an eye - 2013

Half way done with 2013,

time always wait for no one.

When I look back,

things had changed.

Now,

CF'14 Asst. Director of Sponsorship

Convo fest'13 secretary
Planning a business events with friends,
tons of assignments waiting (7 subjects this sem)

Year 2 Sem3, (3 sems remaining in MMU)

He talks to me now.

Still fighting for my long lost dean list.

Peoples come and go,

but also alot of old people stays. 

Joined OC for forth times.

Meanwhile in Kukfas,

Everyone seems to live a busy life,

as usual,

lesssser gathering,
everyone moving forward with their life,

and now friends graduated, 

stepped into working life,

getting their life partner. 

wonder who will get married first?

=)

I am gonna bring happiness to peoples around me. 

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Made drama recorded in video, edited by cousins, for father's day celebration.

Wondering how's the output of our efforts. 

Hope things gonna turn out fine.
Take care dad.
You have my back.

Today is my day~

Today after a lot of unlucky events,
such as, fell down in bathroom, had a nightmare night before, got chased out from the swimming pool, and almost fell down from staircase..
FINALLY
a lucky and happy incidents happened on me!!
We managed to talk today!
Muahahahhaa
so happy
summore he talked to me first yo!
and twice haha
funny thing was when we left the class he was like facing me,
and i tot he was going to talk something but nothing came out from his mouth, thus I said bye and he said bye too... funny moment.
very happy but I will keep my feelings under control so it wont overflow.
She was right,
just enjoy the moment and dont think too much.
I'll just go with the flow.
Who knows after we become closer friend dy then just realized that we might not suitable for each other?
=)
Anyway Im kinda happy today.
But different from last time.
If this happens to me 6 months ago,
I'll be having insomnia!!
LOL

"If you want to find your Mr.Right, you have to first be a Ms.Right. " - Anon, (2013)

Keep calm and stay cool.

=))

Exausted

This semester is terrifying,
7 subjects in 4 days is very tiring.
plus convo fest (secretary) + career fair (asst director sp)
CONGRATULATIONS!!
I AM NOW IN A WHOLE NEW LEVEL OF STRESS!

This is real challenging.
I am soo gonna K.O each of this with distinction!
4.0 pointer this semester is my target...
if not i will cut my limbs..
same goes to convo fest and career fair..

They were right,
Im lack of confidence.
I will give myself CONFIDENCE BOOST!

Nick Vujicic's book is very motivating,
it made my days feel better after reading it.
I basically bring it everywhere and read it when I got free time.

Now I am living a healthy lifestyle.
Every week I'll go for jogging, cycling in gym, and swimming.
Keep fit.
Study mode on.
Event mode on.

and most importantly,
PERFECT MODE ON!!
DO MY BEST! GIVE MY BEST!!

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sometimes it is so hard to give up,
i told my heart to get over him,
but most of the time, it resist of doing so.

and I just found out,
he attending the same class with me!!
NOW!!
we are from different faculty and I never tot that we could be in the same class!
this is a long sem...
and im gonna be so dead. :O
tried to forget but fail everytime..
how am I going to do this... :(
or should i atleast try before I give up?
aih hard to decide...
am I going to embarassed myself??

Nick Vujicic says: 没有哪个人比其他人更有价值。
means everyone is this world are equal.
I should practice this in my mind.
and some meaningful quote from him is
要想找到我想要的东西，唯一的办法就是逾念与行动和坚持不懈。
上帝是不会犯错的。他对我们自有安排。

on love
1. 只要你对爱情敞开大门，爱情就会到来。而如果你给自己的心筑起一道围墙，那么爱情怎样都不会到来。
2.要让别人爱你，首先你必须自己爱自己。
3.千万不要放弃爱情。上帝不愿意看到你浪费自己拥有的爱。

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Get a chance to learn new things and work with this person whom I admired for long time ago,
I will give my best and improve myself.
PROVE IT WCY!!!

杨千嬅

誰人曾愛過你　你盡量幻想他貪你什麼　好心地也不錯

誰人曾厭棄你　你問問自己他憎你什麼　或是怕你會肚餓

*如果想照耀萬人　請加點信心

如果想抱住情人　請吸取教訓

如果想快樂做人　請敲敲你心

如果可磊落做人　你會更吸引

#童年時那個你　與弟弟在家中演你自己　哭只因你歡喜

成年人勸過你　你現在大個需要做大戲　但別要太過顧忌

你有個個也有　你有爸爸媽媽

你有占過掛　你有幾口一家

你亦有收過花得過初吻放過煙花

你的八字看透了嗎　你有苦戀的他

你有膽卻怕　你有許多牽掛

你未有卻恨有　勇士笑對你說過來吧

lets not get too much carried away

gotta admit that,
i am a very naive person,
I believe in everything others say.
without thinking the intentions of him/her of saying that.

When he says : A is mean and bad.
So thats my impression towards A.
When she says : B is pretty and kind.
and this becomes my impression towards B.

and what happens is,
I subconciously interact less with A,
without seeing it for myself,
so indirectly I am judging others..
at the same time the friend that told me A is mean still be a very close friend with A.
Am I being a fool for believing what he say??
I was new in the game i guess,
I cant talk bad bout a person and still be friend with him/her happily,
but he can.
and that amazesss me.

I am soooooo naive.
I will not be easily affected by others anymore.
I will not judge.
and thats one of the most important thing I've learnt during orientation June 2013.