倒数

倒数总是最快乐的

不是吗？

令人期待的未来

自己无法控制的去幻想 

理想中的明天，下个星期，下个月

但那天来了，然后过了

突然就有一种空虚和失落

是什么没了？

嗯，期待没了。

所以今天是最好的，我可以一直期待即将来临的三个星期假期。

耶

美？

有时候我觉得自己很丑很丑，眼睛那么小鼻子那么塌 脸皮那么粗 毛孔那么大 肥死了

但有时候我觉得我好像好漂亮 好好看 人见人爱 车见车载 胖些些也可爱

好烦恼啊。

#大姨妈来时总喜欢想些有的没的 

The fault in our stars

Mr. Van Houten,

I'm a good person, but a shitty writer. You're a shitty person, but a good writer. I think we'd make a good team. I don't want to ask you for any favors, but if you have the time, and from what I saw, you have plenty. Please fix this for me, it's a eulogy for Hazel. She asked me to write one and I'm trying, I just I could use a little flare. See the thing is, we all want to be remembered, but Hazel is different. Hazel knows the truth. She didn't want a million admirers, she just wanted one. And she got it. Maybe she wasn't loved widely, but she was loved deeply. And isn't that more than what most of us get? When Hazel was sick, I knew I was dying, but I didn't want to say so. She was in the ICU when I snuck in for 10 minutes and I sat with her before I got caught. Her eyes were closed, her skin pale, but her hands were still her hands. So warm and her nails were painted this dark blue black color and I just held them. Then I willed myself to imagine a world without us. What a worthless world that would be. She's so beautiful, you don't get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she's smarter than you because you know she is. She's funny without ever being mean. I love her, God I love her. I'm so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have say in who hurts you. And I like my choices, I hope she likes hers. Okay, Hazel Grace? 

- The Fault in Our Stars (2014)

Rating : 4.5/5.0

The majority, the lucky one doesn't know how to appreciate things, or people because we always take things for granted.

Freedom

我迫不及待摆脱你。

我会自由自在的飞。

我可以去找朋友。

我不需要听到咆哮或埋怨。

Fail

Why am I such a failure ?

Every little thing also can't accomplish, 

Been wanting to get good results in spm stpm and eventually all never meet my expectation. 

And now it's just one little step away from first class honor, just 0.02 more, 

I need a lil hard work more , to get it. And why does it seems so far away now?? 

So I have to say bye bye from first class honor. Again, I failed myself from getting it, I've been aiming it since year 1 in MMU. 

Im such a useless piece of cha siew. 

Never feel so down before. Ptptn can be waived with first class honor and the 39k is my liability now. 

Fail fail fail.

少年不努力

有时间的话，我会想好好的读读历史书籍。只要是人，那么人性的弱点（贪婪，残暴，纵欲，骄傲等等）只会让历史不断重演。

孙子兵法一直没时间研究。

还有好多的中国古代留下来的智慧真的很值得研究，资治通鉴是另外一本我很想阅读，司马光著作，记载了一千多年的朝代盛衰兴亡，可以应用在现在管理上。（这些都是以前的学生需要读的，如果比起来以前的学生应该聪明过现代的学生，这里又有很长的故事要说，next post perhaps)

还有易经。买了但是还没读。

为什么我不早一点知道呢？这些对以前的我来说是很沉闷很无聊的，还想既然已经发生了的事情都改变不了，为什么要去研究呢，可是不知道是人长大了，竟然会开始对过去的事情有兴趣，想要了解自己的根。

现在的想法是虽然过去了但是人类一定要从中吸取教训，学习和避免错误再次重演。

人果然都会变啊。

Internship Interview

Standard chartered called me up for an interview. Long story short, I kinda screw up the interview.. Not confident that they will offer me or not.. Anyway even if they offer me I have to think twice , cuz the field that I'm interested is investment banking. 

Really in dilemma .. I do interested in stocks but is it the right field to go in? Is IB more related with corporate finance? 

But what I like is to make profit from selling and buying of stocks or forming a portfolio I would say.. 

But never try never know. 

Jiumu has been really helpful for giving me lots of suggestion and information.. She even advise me to apply to all and if really decided to go into IB then what I need to do right now is to get into Securities firm .. Definitely not commercial bank. If I get into commercial bank now, it will be harder for me to enter IB later as I have zero exposure in IB. 

Ahhhhh I really hate crossroads. :(( 

Ok I'm not gonna compromise.

I'm not 100% confident that I will love IB but I think must give it a try first to know whether it is the right industry for me or not. Cuz once I made the decision.. There's no turning back.. Oh o...... 

So that means, 

#1- if enter commercial bank, cannot go into IB later. 

#2- if enter IB, can still change later. 

RHB oh RHB can you please call me?? 

Starbucks

This place is used to be a great spot for people to do their work quietly and serenely. And now I'm in starbuck studying for mid term next week and realized .. Why so bising one??!! 

Is it because the cost of living is higher now and thus Starbucks is relatively cheaper and everyone comes here.

People discussing business here, parents bring kids / grandma brings grandchildren for tea time, a group of friends come and chit chat, all sorts of formal and informal meeting... 

Ahhhh I freaking BTH the noise !! 

Want chit chat please go somewhere else.. 

So now here become the high class kopitiam for people dy. 

ANGRY. 

Most anticipated Holidays are coming!

OMG OMG
This is gonna be my second last semester break ever!!
Next sem will be my second last sem- taking two subjects during short sem, and then going for intern in the last sem!
So currently still got one more paper! Just one more!! After defeating 6 papers and after friday...
I am FREEEEEEE!

Before this coming holiday,
I really have so many things to do!! Time flies and suddenly I've already in my Final year!
Gotta make the best out of it before I graduated!

So here's my plan,

Taking part in CIMB Trail challenge on 1st March,
Going to apply for CIMA business challenge (however looking for team member, who wanna join meee? =O =O)
Work as event crew for FMFA 13-15 march
Study on stock market using technical analysis
Set up a FB page and Website for dad
Do research on CFA level 1 exam
Online research??
Finish reading my bookssss (whole lots of books waiting for meee which I bought for 2 years during big bad wolf book sales)
Prepare resume
Target companies for internship (Maybank? CIMB? Shell? IBM? PWC? urghhh...)

That‘s all and I hope I can complete my to-do-list within this three weeks!

Keep fighting for the last paper Come on!!!

Grrrr!!!!!

意见女上身！

天哪啊啊啊 脑残的网民无处不在。

讲话不用本的。

我很geram 啊

我们国家几时才会进步呢？？

话不多说我们有图为证。

 

吃得起的人都不会有这种一般见识的third world mindset 吧。这个人讲话之前请查看什么是米其林星级。

（米其林餐厅需要你这个无名小卒宣传？）

#自以为是是一种病