HI

hello my long abandoned blog.

guess its been almost a year since my last post.

Sometimes I'd wished I'd blog frequently, to record everything that has happened, and everyone I came across.

Everything has changed.

and thats the trend now i would say.

life-changing technology and fast paced lifestyle is the thing now.

Just some update of my life:

Study: I have finished my studies, and currently waiting for graduation ceremony to be convened coming September. At this point in life, I really really really miss Uni life alot. I guess a part of me will die after graduation, cuz I'm officially graduated and not a student anymore.

Work: Its challenging, not because of the work load, but the people I faces. At first it was okay but the longer i stayed, it seems like everything is not right.. or maybe its me who keep doing the comparison with other friends who are working in other MNC? Now I feel work life balance is very important, I want to attend Yoga class after work, chill with friends/colleagues at the bar, attend some training courses and perhaps assigned a oversea assignment.. ahh it all seems so far away.. Training wise, hmm, here they expect you to learn yourself, study materials are provided, supervisors are helpful? (depends on their mood/whether are they occupied) they will teach you.. Is everything systematic? No.. it is largely depends on human factor, which means what you say or what you do are to their liking, if they disapprove they you might not be able to get ur leave, unlike some company where u can apply through system and you are encouraged to fully utilized your annual leave. When you want to claim some work related bills you will need to get nod from bosses. Instead of following SOP, it is solely upon discretion of your supervisor. This is the part I hated the most. As I know, the practice of this industry are similar, you get high bonus, but in return you dont get to enjoy life. I'M IN DILEMMA. Work/profession that I've always wanted, but I'm not happy now. Maybe I should give myself another shot in another environment, only to decide whether should I change my path.

Friends: Glad that everyone's still keep in touch n update with each other.

Health: Still alive. Just need to cut some weight.

Dreams: As you grow older, your dreams will slowly fade away. Is it true? No... I'm still gonna start my own business one day. before 30.

Money Money Money, I need more money.

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最近对人生有很多感悟，
在做工的日子里，
一个星期比一个星期过得很快，
由原本很慢，到慢，到快，到很快，到一眨眼的快。
心里会突然觉得很怕，
我的日子，最青春最有活力最美好的日子要这样过了吗？
不是说做工不好，
但会觉得这样的日子对人类，或对我自己有什么意义？
我看到我上司就这样做了好多年的工，
我不想那样
薪水虽然很好，
但是我的话，
我绝对会后悔。
我想要活自己的人生，为自己活。
做工是必要的，在可以自由自在飞之前，也要储够自己的子弹。
有时我想，可能每个人毕业后都想去闯出自己的一片天地，
到最后有多少人妥协了?

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这是个残酷和现实的世界。

下回告诉你为什么。


加油。

感恩

1. 今天历尽千辛万苦才能把报告交了，终于真正的无所事事了！哈哈

2. 感谢妈妈的付出，我还没对你说谢谢..但是我心里真的很感谢你没嫌弃我又给你添麻烦。爱你！

3. 最近很喜欢很喜欢一首歌，化蝶by 一个姓胡的歌手。是tvb一部剧集的歌。

4. 最近不知怎么的 好像对世界一切红尘都看开了。我的悟性好像还蛮高的。在想我前世是和尚还是道士吗？我相信轮回之说。

为什么呢？stay tune. 嘻嘻 

日记-8-9-2014

1. 今天看了两部电影，《绣春刀》、《her》，第一部是关于锦衣卫，第二步比较精彩，是关于人类跟虚拟人类（好像Siri）的爱情故事。

2. 睡到自然醒。

3. 读了论坛一些关于CF的industry，我想I'm on the right track. Glad that I can work in this department. 

日记-7.9.2014

1. 今天懒懒散散的赖在家，跟家人一起，看电视，读报纸，过的挺暇意的。

2. 吃货的一天，不停的吃，晚上妈妈特地做三色奶茶，看相还好但味道还不错！

3. 明天不用做工！但是要开始写报告了！耶！

我的人生有好多好多事情还没做啊...

这几天都在想，

我们的世界其实是进步，还是退步了。

科技的确是日新月异，

但人类的思考也有与时并进吗？

Knowledge 实在是太readily available 的年代，造就成每个人都更懒惰去吸收和学习，因为随时随地上网就可以知道一切为什么要花时间精神去学习。

（越rare的东西人们才会珍惜）

以前的社会，会崇拜智者，老师，或知识丰富的人，

现在的社会，却推崇有钱，高调，美丽的人。

我们的文明，是在进步还是退步？

日记-5.9.2014

1. 跟好友去看了一部引人深思的电影-《lucy》，很喜欢，电影里的台词都非常具有哲思，人类很渺小，却很自大。

2. 晚上的聚会吃了好多，很饱，好玩，跟小孩子一起玩让我也变的纯真，跟大人们聊天，跟亲戚做灯笼。

3. 身边的亲戚朋友都健康安好！

The truth is, all we have is NOW. 

三件感恩的事情-4/9/2014

1. 我还活在这世上！有明天就有希望！

2. 今天是实习的结束，假期的开始！

3. 今天中午跟同事上司departmental lunch @ Ozeki. 他们当是我的farewell lunch.

其实真的很感叹，mixed feelings. 

If that never happen, it's gonna be a welcoming lunch instead. 

God bless your soul, Beh. You were a good and kind young man, and I know you will definitely be remembered by your friends and family. Rest in peace. 

倒数

倒数总是最快乐的

不是吗？

令人期待的未来

自己无法控制的去幻想 

理想中的明天，下个星期，下个月

但那天来了，然后过了

突然就有一种空虚和失落

是什么没了？

嗯，期待没了。

所以今天是最好的，我可以一直期待即将来临的三个星期假期。

耶

美？

有时候我觉得自己很丑很丑，眼睛那么小鼻子那么塌 脸皮那么粗 毛孔那么大 肥死了

但有时候我觉得我好像好漂亮 好好看 人见人爱 车见车载 胖些些也可爱

好烦恼啊。

#大姨妈来时总喜欢想些有的没的 

The fault in our stars

Mr. Van Houten,

I'm a good person, but a shitty writer. You're a shitty person, but a good writer. I think we'd make a good team. I don't want to ask you for any favors, but if you have the time, and from what I saw, you have plenty. Please fix this for me, it's a eulogy for Hazel. She asked me to write one and I'm trying, I just I could use a little flare. See the thing is, we all want to be remembered, but Hazel is different. Hazel knows the truth. She didn't want a million admirers, she just wanted one. And she got it. Maybe she wasn't loved widely, but she was loved deeply. And isn't that more than what most of us get? When Hazel was sick, I knew I was dying, but I didn't want to say so. She was in the ICU when I snuck in for 10 minutes and I sat with her before I got caught. Her eyes were closed, her skin pale, but her hands were still her hands. So warm and her nails were painted this dark blue black color and I just held them. Then I willed myself to imagine a world without us. What a worthless world that would be. She's so beautiful, you don't get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she's smarter than you because you know she is. She's funny without ever being mean. I love her, God I love her. I'm so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have say in who hurts you. And I like my choices, I hope she likes hers. Okay, Hazel Grace? 

- The Fault in Our Stars (2014)

Rating : 4.5/5.0

The majority, the lucky one doesn't know how to appreciate things, or people because we always take things for granted.

Freedom

我迫不及待摆脱你。

我会自由自在的飞。

我可以去找朋友。

我不需要听到咆哮或埋怨。