Random 29/12/2011

两天，

多两天就正式告别2011。

今天是2011 最后第二个weekday，

明天是2011最后一个上班日/上课日.

Im definitely gonna enjoy tmr.. =D

明天有marketing, management的课，

然后在1.30要练习malaysian study's role play.

在2.00 present完后，

就要赶去tesco 搭巴士去penang.

3.15出发。

大概9点才会到penang..

晚上到那边，就跟the gang meet，

and then 吃晚餐.. :-)

应该会拥有精彩的friday night..

最近发生了很多事情。。

多到我不知道怎么说出来。。啊啊rghhh... /.\

1. its gonna be a lonely dinner starts from now

   2 friends moved out from hostel, and at first I have not much feeling towards this but now I can feel the impact.. Im eating dinner alone~ hohoho. needa fix this... there must be a way... and im gonna do it.. 

2. pressure of assignment

   finding a correct assignment-mate is superb important.. it will not only affect your marks but it might caused u some heart-weakening disease too... this is really important... I know its a common rule sometimes that we cant choose our teammates is similar to the condition when we join the society in the future we cant choose who we want to work with... but... there's always a choice right??!!. Im trying my best to be a good assignment mate & team mate... add oil to myself.

3. pressure of academic achievement

   I always feel down and upset when I think back the reason why im taking stpm..which is to enter IPTA. and now the target is not achieve. I did not achieve my target. Although I know sometimes its about luck...but sadly i have no luck at all on this matter... :-(  And although i know studying in MMU is good... but still, its like a thorn in my heart. Due to these, I am now trying my best.. to score in first sem and i really wished to get to apply a scholarship and graduate with 1st class hounour, so that I dont have to burden my parents... I want to be responsible to myself and dear papa mama. 

很喜欢友人的一篇文章，

活了20年，还是没能够真正体会生存的意义。

有些人，20岁就办了自己的演唱会。

有些人，20岁早已大学毕业。

有些人，20 岁早已成家立业。

有些人，20岁就有自己的一番成就。

回头看看自己。
我好像什么都不是。

不要说我没有努力过。
我有努力过，我也有偷懒过。

我觉得我懂的东西不少，可是并没有很多。

我对自己的要求时高时低，起起伏伏。
找不到标准，也从来不定标准。

偶尔，我还是不知道自己要的是什么。
有时侯以为知道，到头来原来是另一回事。

这里绝对说出了我的心声。。

20岁的我，

以为自己什么都是，

但可能什么都不是。

可以什么都是，

也可以什么都不是。

经常忽然有一种慌张感，

啊 我已经二十了。。。。

很羡慕还没或已经二十就已经找到自己定位的人。。

因为越早开始努力，

越早达到目标。

知道自己的方向在哪里，and work for it, 应该是最满足的事吧。:)

"Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking trying to see though the rain coming down.

 Even though I'm not the only one who feels the way I do,

 I'm alone on my own and I"m starting off I'll be strong, I'll be wrong,

 Oh but life goes on,

 Oh I'm just a girl,

 trying to find a place in this world." __Taylor Swift's_ A place in this world