抗焦虑

最近有一个issue arise,

我发现很多人的抗焦虑指数没那么高。

生活在这些人的周围，

会让你很stress.

sometimes 只是很小事（小迟到，别人随口的意见，忧虑于不可能发生的xx事件，等等）

尽然可以让一个人如此紧张，担心，不安一整天。

对我来说，

未来的事不用担心（当然还是要努力）

控制不了的事情不用担心

不要去想太多有的没的

人生会多美好啊！

何必把时间精神浪费在对事情一点都没帮助的worries？

还是我太不care?

Sometimes "I don't care" is all you have to do to make yourself happier. 

Source: from people around me

LTNS

Hello my long abandoned blog. 

It's been a busy months and year and totally neglect this habit of writing blog.

Anyway,

No post might indicating good sign,

That means less emo events around me and I don't have to release stress and express view through blogging (my sole purpose of writing blogpost, so far)

Maybe I should post up my life events here too. 

To decrease my will for creating an Instagram. 

Welcome back my thoughts! 

Weeeee ;D 

Updates 15.8.2013

Again, living a really busy lfiestyle after my super short raya break a.k.a mid term break.

Seriously have no idea what I've done in the mid term break?

Ok all I could rmb was I went Penang happily and consume every food that appears in front of me and....

ended up having serious constipation after the trip -_-. 

During the trip we stayed at one of my housemate's home and, courtesy of her for bringing us around for food marathon. 

This trip very much reminds me of the gang, around 2 years back how we spent our crazy nights together and do random stuff ...which the memories will always be cherish! Therefore my advice is that young people out there please do as many random sh*t (not abusive and illegal of course) as you can so that when you gets older there's something for you to reminisce on.. Isn't that's what we do when we gets really old, sitting on bench at beach side looking at the dawn and reminiscing all the good old times eh?

hehe anyway,

and I duno why, there's always lucky events happen around me at times *thank you to the creator of this world*

Kun - this always happy-go-lucky cutest guy on the earth, and another close fren of mine, Hao,

where during one random day we went for yumcha and they found notes on the floor... RM50 they thought at first but when they opened it, its actually 2 pieces of RM50!

OKAY, you might say that we should pass this money to nearest police station or ask around who has lost their money BUT u know what everybody is gonna claims that its theirs (including the police officer , yeah i know I ASSUME) but its different story when you found a purse and I swear we will report if we found a purse .. ANYWAY YOLO comes first, so the 3 stooges decided to spend everything they could in a night (if you're chinese, you should know what season is this now) and according to some belief that those money found need to spent straightaway without keeping it overnight.. They said. 

So the three stooges went to get some cakes and sat in Starbucks while chit chating the night away AND also watched a movie with popcorn. WHAT A WONDERFUL NIGHT. and yes, with 10% of guilty in my tiny little heart with conscience.. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. GOD BLESS YOU. =)

So.....................

and I've been busy lately.........

ok, with assignments OMG I'm really bored with this - WHY do I have to tell people that I'm busy because of assignments??? It feels so lifeless and so not cool but the fact is..... Its really because of assignment. /.\

Please give me some really cool things to tell others the reason I'm busy like for example, oh sry been traveling to Europes recently, been taking part in reality show -The Apprentice , or I just got back from exchange program / oh yea cause I'm filming Harry Potter 8th series again . 

So....................

Got myself an Iphone 5!!! Weeeee Im a happy girl now!! After bearing with Nokia 3310 for some period and now I can finally...... acting cool with a phone in my hands when I have nothing to do, buzz my fren anytime when I'm bored, taking amazing pictures especially with their superb image quality, and I swear Im not gonna use Instagram. Sorry no offence but, I'm trying to avoid using too much social network media, and keep myself low profile =P and... also to keeps me happy with myself. (without seeing too much other's life is one of the way you can live your own life)

Grew fat after Penang trip and eat like nobody's business nowadays.

Its always a cycle which = semester , when starts of new sem I'd be eager to go to gym, swimming, jogging, and wanna look perfect, now its almost end of the sem, all I wanna do is to finish all submission on time but I cant do it without munching on snacks in the mid night....... and I know.. This is going to repeat next sem. 

Anyway there IS something excited going on..

Im renting a stall in my Uni's events,

and we're going to sell some drinks and food,

This will be a.... tough competition.

I just know that there are alot of vendorssss taking part -_-

anyway We will 杀出一条血路！！

and we're gonna eat our appreciation dinner at Shabu-shabu. Weeeeeeeee  =D

and andddd I'm planning my back pack trip to Cambodia next year!!

Im gonna witness the amazing Angkor Wat's dawn!! 

Weeee finally feel like an adult eh =P

Its always something I wanna do...

Anyway its still in the planning stage,

so lets hope for the best! 

PS. The best is yet to come! #positivityoverload

stupid girl

Finally a concrete reason to move on.

Tagged with a girl , celebrated birthday with her,
So uh-mazing and unbelievable,
and efficient!

So fast to get to her. Duh.
And I'm one of the person told you she's pretty.

This is a joke.
Thank you very much.

Cant help it

Meet you almost everyday this week,
got ups and downs,
so Im gonna pour it all out here..

Monday: talked to you in the library. As usual, I made the first move. I sat in front of you and ask you bout something. You seem happy and smiling all over your face, is that hallucination or wat? hmm =) Actually I just want to talk to you. Was thinking bout what I should ask/tell/inform you. Anddd you asked for my number. Should I be happy bout it? I dunno what it means..is it cuz we're going to work together in cf?

Tuesday: Knew that i'll  meet you in class. but you're alone, your friend absent. and you're sitting infront of me. You seems boring, sleepy. If your friend is here you'll be chit chating with him, maybe discussing pretty girls in class. LOL. So I borrowed friend's phone, open my fb, and search for your name, and you were online that time. (Saw you playing fb from behind). I was strike by a sudden urge of "courage" and became so bravee to pm you in fb. and glad that you replied me too. Chat with you until the class ended. and we just said bye in fb, instead of face to face. when i turned around you left the class already.

At night, you were there for cf meeting, wearing the same shirts, (me too). haha. but we never greet each other, my division head presented the intro, briefing.. and we were divided into division. You sat beside me. Everything seems normal. I talked abit, and intro abit...  But in fact it isnt, my heart beating like fast & furious! At first, he kept looking at my table, it feels weird and i was thinking maybe he wants to look at my notes and the scheme, so i pass him. After that he pass back to me. Andd he was still staring at my notes...... -.- omg and i just realize, his angle can view my..... (.)(.) ??!! ARE YOU A PERVERT???!!!  =.=

Wednesday (today) : So today I ajak few friends come out for dinner, one girl friend ajak-ed you, and surprisingly, you ON! wao... I've never thought of that. The dinner dint went up to my expectations.. (my performances) I would rate myself 5/10. haha. Its fun to see another side of you. Thats really cute and rare and humorous. Im still too quiet. I really dont know why. sometimes cant act like me. Where is ME?!!
A lil upset.. it dint turn out good as last 2 days. Sometimes you did asked bout cute questions, like who did I watch the movie with, and who i went with, is that even a little hint? Maybe you;re just teasing me and I've think too much again.
Dint get to talk much with you. Crap got la. And we dint even say bye. again. and I saw you sat behind during recital, and when we leave, we dint say bye, again. Triple damage.

So I know tmr we're gonna meet again. Lets just go with the flow..
I will not be having any hope as the greater the expectations, the greater the disappointments, and the deeper I'll fell for............

after all these, not to be perasan but if you have lil feeling for me, even for just 10%, i guess you'll make the move to chat with me, talk to me, figure any way to increase d interaction rite?

Yeah..
Maybe, I think too much.
It doesn't exist and will not happen.

Cheers to  myself for a better tmr and be a better person than today!!
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A very meaningful quotes I've read,
this describes what's on my mind perfectly,

To love someone can indeed be scary because you are essentially opening up and giving yourself to a person, you are giving them power over your emotions. When you open up to someone like that, it is easy to get hurt, and often that is the case. Getting hurt by someone you love is probably the worst feeling in the world. But what is important to understand is that people are just people. Often people do things without understanding what effect they might have on another person. 

and another one,
That look someone gives you when they fall for you, is indescribable. To be cherished by someone is an incredible feeling. Having people in your life that you can trust to be there should you need them, will give you irreplaceable confidence, calmness, maturity — and most importantly — happiness.


=) cheers!

A super addictive song that I just found out from this amazing singer, Marie Digby.

There's a light in the dark
Where the sky splits apart
Where the stars find a way
To shine through all the spaces in between
Here we are face to face
All alone in this place
And the night is finally coming down to you and me

Tell me where you've been hiding?
Oh, I want to know
You're my silver lining covered in gold
Tell me what am I feeling?
Well, it's hard to explain
Like underwater breathing
Swimming in rain

Oh, oh...all I really want to do, do
Is fall even deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing, breathing underwater
I'm weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I'm breathing, breathing, breathing, underwater

I wanna fly through the blue
Lake on the bottom with you
Getting lost in the waves
Let the world slip away
When nobody can find us

I don't want to be saved
Leave it all behind us
Make an escape
Tell me what am I feeling?
Oh, it's hard to explain
Like underwater breathing
Swimming in rain

Oh, oh...all I really want to do, do
Is fall even deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing, breathing underwater
I'm weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I'm breathing, breathing, breathing, underwater

Wanna go to the edge
Wanna dive in again
Here we are face to face
All alone in this place
And it's finally coming down to you and me

Oh, oh...all I really want to do, do
Is fall even deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing, breathing underwater
I'm weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I'm breathing, breathing, breathing, underwater

In a blink of an eye - 2013

Half way done with 2013,

time always wait for no one.

When I look back,

things had changed.

Now,

CF'14 Asst. Director of Sponsorship

Convo fest'13 secretary
Planning a business events with friends,
tons of assignments waiting (7 subjects this sem)

Year 2 Sem3, (3 sems remaining in MMU)

He talks to me now.

Still fighting for my long lost dean list.

Peoples come and go,

but also alot of old people stays. 

Joined OC for forth times.

Meanwhile in Kukfas,

Everyone seems to live a busy life,

as usual,

lesssser gathering,
everyone moving forward with their life,

and now friends graduated, 

stepped into working life,

getting their life partner. 

wonder who will get married first?

=)

I am gonna bring happiness to peoples around me. 

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Made drama recorded in video, edited by cousins, for father's day celebration.

Wondering how's the output of our efforts. 

Hope things gonna turn out fine.
Take care dad.
You have my back.

Today is my day~

Today after a lot of unlucky events,
such as, fell down in bathroom, had a nightmare night before, got chased out from the swimming pool, and almost fell down from staircase..
FINALLY
a lucky and happy incidents happened on me!!
We managed to talk today!
Muahahahhaa
so happy
summore he talked to me first yo!
and twice haha
funny thing was when we left the class he was like facing me,
and i tot he was going to talk something but nothing came out from his mouth, thus I said bye and he said bye too... funny moment.
very happy but I will keep my feelings under control so it wont overflow.
She was right,
just enjoy the moment and dont think too much.
I'll just go with the flow.
Who knows after we become closer friend dy then just realized that we might not suitable for each other?
=)
Anyway Im kinda happy today.
But different from last time.
If this happens to me 6 months ago,
I'll be having insomnia!!
LOL

"If you want to find your Mr.Right, you have to first be a Ms.Right. " - Anon, (2013)

Keep calm and stay cool.

=))

Exausted

This semester is terrifying,
7 subjects in 4 days is very tiring.
plus convo fest (secretary) + career fair (asst director sp)
CONGRATULATIONS!!
I AM NOW IN A WHOLE NEW LEVEL OF STRESS!

This is real challenging.
I am soo gonna K.O each of this with distinction!
4.0 pointer this semester is my target...
if not i will cut my limbs..
same goes to convo fest and career fair..

They were right,
Im lack of confidence.
I will give myself CONFIDENCE BOOST!

Nick Vujicic's book is very motivating,
it made my days feel better after reading it.
I basically bring it everywhere and read it when I got free time.

Now I am living a healthy lifestyle.
Every week I'll go for jogging, cycling in gym, and swimming.
Keep fit.
Study mode on.
Event mode on.

and most importantly,
PERFECT MODE ON!!
DO MY BEST! GIVE MY BEST!!

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sometimes it is so hard to give up,
i told my heart to get over him,
but most of the time, it resist of doing so.

and I just found out,
he attending the same class with me!!
NOW!!
we are from different faculty and I never tot that we could be in the same class!
this is a long sem...
and im gonna be so dead. :O
tried to forget but fail everytime..
how am I going to do this... :(
or should i atleast try before I give up?
aih hard to decide...
am I going to embarassed myself??

Nick Vujicic says: 没有哪个人比其他人更有价值。
means everyone is this world are equal.
I should practice this in my mind.
and some meaningful quote from him is
要想找到我想要的东西，唯一的办法就是逾念与行动和坚持不懈。
上帝是不会犯错的。他对我们自有安排。

on love
1. 只要你对爱情敞开大门，爱情就会到来。而如果你给自己的心筑起一道围墙，那么爱情怎样都不会到来。
2.要让别人爱你，首先你必须自己爱自己。
3.千万不要放弃爱情。上帝不愿意看到你浪费自己拥有的爱。

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Get a chance to learn new things and work with this person whom I admired for long time ago,
I will give my best and improve myself.
PROVE IT WCY!!!

杨千嬅

誰人曾愛過你　你盡量幻想他貪你什麼　好心地也不錯

誰人曾厭棄你　你問問自己他憎你什麼　或是怕你會肚餓

*如果想照耀萬人　請加點信心

如果想抱住情人　請吸取教訓

如果想快樂做人　請敲敲你心

如果可磊落做人　你會更吸引

#童年時那個你　與弟弟在家中演你自己　哭只因你歡喜

成年人勸過你　你現在大個需要做大戲　但別要太過顧忌

你有個個也有　你有爸爸媽媽

你有占過掛　你有幾口一家

你亦有收過花得過初吻放過煙花

你的八字看透了嗎　你有苦戀的他

你有膽卻怕　你有許多牽掛

你未有卻恨有　勇士笑對你說過來吧

lets not get too much carried away

gotta admit that,
i am a very naive person,
I believe in everything others say.
without thinking the intentions of him/her of saying that.

When he says : A is mean and bad.
So thats my impression towards A.
When she says : B is pretty and kind.
and this becomes my impression towards B.

and what happens is,
I subconciously interact less with A,
without seeing it for myself,
so indirectly I am judging others..
at the same time the friend that told me A is mean still be a very close friend with A.
Am I being a fool for believing what he say??
I was new in the game i guess,
I cant talk bad bout a person and still be friend with him/her happily,
but he can.
and that amazesss me.

I am soooooo naive.
I will not be easily affected by others anymore.
I will not judge.
and thats one of the most important thing I've learnt during orientation June 2013.

too good to be true

he is too good to be true.


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update of 4th june.

Is it unhealthy when you think someone is too good to be true?
Because I like him,
so I think he is perfect,
and I am too.. inferior for him?
I started to focus on what Im lack of,
such as nice body figure, cheerful, brilliant, friends..
and I feel worse and worse bout myself day by day.

I hate this feeling.
It made me feel down and upset most of the time.
Where are the happy me?

I should believe in God,
that there's someone who will appreciate me as what I am,
accept my good and bad wholeheartedly,
is out there waiting for me.

No more awful feeling for myself!!
I am my dad n mom's little and perfect princess.
I will make them proud at the same time.
Being a better girl/woman.

Orientation 2013 June intake

yeah, unsurprisingly,
I join orientation again.
this is the second time I'm joining the big intake (only June counted) and unofficially the 4th times I've become an Orientation Comm.

Always have that mixed feelings before the program,
feelings of regret, excited (?) , anxious, boring (same song same dance same game just some new faces), and etc.
Am thinking if I dint join then what would I do?
slack at home? watching my dramas and movies,
or go out have some good time with friends.
but most probably sleeping at home.

Sometimes I would get bored with this,
but.. God knows I will feel so engage to this group of people after the bonding camp?
Anyway..
lets hopes for the best tmr.

2 weeks of holidays.
No fb, no blog, no you tube, no internet.
Bye Bye

PS. He's joining this time.. I hope that I will not develop any feelings for him again.. Must get rid of him...
      Already one year.. I must move on.. and wait for a better guy.
   

"Every time I think of him, I would remind myself that if he wanted to talk to me, he would." - Anonymous.


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Btw..
So in love with Robert Downey Jr recently,
am I considered obsess with him if I have to watch ironman either 1 or 2 once per day?
and watching their interviews and movie's premieres,
and found out that I'm not the only person on the earth thinks that Robert Downey Jr IS ACTUALLY  Tony Starks!
So happy. :D
He basically are as sardonic and humorous and witty and charming and lively, like Tony Starks!!
I guess he basically portraying his own character into Ironman.

He's 48 this year,
and I'm amaze by how he become famous,
from Sherlock holmes to tony starks,
in just few years.
and we're talking bout the men who had drug and violent problems for long time, and the men that tried drugs ( by his dad) as early as 6 years old.
This is like a person that evolve from a caterpillar from butterflies, and he has now get rid of all the drugs problems and focus on his movie.
I even watch back the movies he did before this 2 super famous franchise films.
Kiss kiss bang bang (2005) is a very funny comedy while due date (2010) is funny too with the Alan from Hangover movies.

This men rocks! ( and I love Johnny Depp too)

This quote by him,
rebellious much?
Sometimes we can see that rebellious kids or insane people that dont care what other thinks,
can achieve farer and better.

Cheers.

Coming election

Can you feel the intensity?

Can you feel the tense atmosphere around you?

Everyone looked calm and cool,

but I think the nearer it is, 

the more nervous the people are.

Everywhere you go now you can always see our PM's face, 

whether I am reading newspaper, watching TV, browsing Youtube, or even listening to radio,

All my senses (touch, see, smell, taste, hear) have basically been invaded by our dearest PM.

I literally sees everything in blue now. Like the world suddenly changes its colour to blue.. (and it caused us everyday also blue)

you must accept the fact that....  HE IS EVERYWHERE.

Is this considered some sort of mentally torture?

Cost for advertising like this must cost a BOMB, worse still, the money might come out from people's pocket.

I believe that if they spend these money wisely by increasing people's well-being, ex. education, public transport, 

they might have some chance of winning. (people's heart)

This is gonna be a short post, who knows if I wrote too much and I'll got arrested tmr. 

#Votefornation #Votewisely #Justicewillbeserved 

Sauteed Portabella Mushroom

Out of sudden this thing just came up to my mind.
When I was viewing some friend's picture in Facebook and randomly I came across with this picture of burger by the super-famous-in-town burger maker - myBurgerlab's charcoal burger.
So it reminded me of my first time having this burger,
when I was the crew of FMFA '13 in Sepang circuit,
My friend and I decided to give it a try since everything there was damn expensive (hardly find anything that doesnt cost me a bomb with everything RM10 and above PS.even a simple fried mee)
and so we tried this in their booth in Sepang instead of its shop which located in PJ.

I was so impressed by its taste and the freshness of the ingredients they're using.
I cant recall the name of the burger, but I remember it is something very extraordinary from the burger i usually eat  (most of them are McD's -_-), with the juicy chicken, thick and chewy cheese, sauteed portabella mushroom and flavourful tomatoes.

From all of this I find Sauteed Portabella Mushroom is my flavourite,
and I would love to eat it solely.
So I Youtube it to find the recipes, it seems so easy to do and I'm gonna try it soon. :P

here is the recipe for sauteed button mushroom which i think is easy to prepare and a recipe with video on how to prepare a portobello mushroom burger. 

PS. Time-out KL: 28 best things we've eaten this year omg the only thing I've tried is forty licks ice cream.  

钻石夜总会

To be honest I don't like this show AT ALL.
aside from being extremely fake, exaggerating, lack of nutrition ( purely waste of time), also for harming children's development!

SO today their topic is about 美魔女 , which is the women that are of middle age or older but still looks like a young girl/lady.
What happen to this show is that they always 物化女性, use female, as an attraction of the show.
Asking every girl to pose like model, showing off their body, wearing as less as possible.
How can such show be appropriate for family audiences?

I am so worried, especially for children that are watching this show.
What will a little girl thinks, when she saw these adults female acting like a bitch in front of TV?
Will she thinks that this is the way to be famous/success?
will she thinks that "ohh so i have to act like this one day when I grew up? "
what will a little boy thinks when he saw all these guy in the show drooling like a wolf when they saw sexy female?
will he thinks that "oh so this is how girls will be like when they grew up."
will he thinks that "oh so I am suppose to be like one of these guy."
will he respect girl and treat women equally? (cuz in this show it clearly delivers a message - women = entertainment and of course education & family's role does play an important part but this also will affect their perspective on women)

If I were a mother of my children, STRICTLY NO 钻石夜总会 ALLOWED!!

Entertainment not equals to nudity. 

Absurd.

PS. 大前研一, a very well-known Japanese management Guru have published a book, 《低智商社会》which is his view on current society and is worth reading. I'm looking forward to read this book.

Insta danger

People nowadays uses Instagram (not to mention Facebook) to post pictures,

tell others about their life,

what they ate, what they own, where they went and so on. 

Does reading other's instagram makes you happier? 

Does the number of likes really matters? 

There are researh shows that using social media can actually bring harm to user. 

In this article, the social media can bring depression and low self-esteem to users like children and teens.

We'll unconsciously compare our life with others. 

Now people are more concern on how many likes they'll get on facebook or instagram instead of how many books they've read annually. 

What will happen to the world then?

I foresee a world, with people not knowing who is David Cameron, Dale Carnegic, Confucius, George Washington, etc, but concern only with latest fashion, fine food, luxury possession, entertainment. 

In the future, if these peoples becomes majority of the society, nation, world, 

You know the people who becomes the authority/famous/success will be very powerful. 

As many people nowadays don't think and use their logical thinking ( from what I see on Facebook, ex. the opposition party posted something and most follower chose to believe without even check if it is a fact or manipulated news )

They tend to follow what other says/ do , and they'll think that go with the flow is correct. 

It is very dangerous when one don't have his own stand / thought, do not have critical thinking, and do not question/doubt. 

Thus they might be easily manipulated and becomes the puppet and tool of wicked people. 

So..
Quickly pull yourself out from this fatal quick sand!

Or.. 

Balance your time between social media and life and starts to indulge yourself in more productive activity!

PS. There is another article I've read recently which I think not bad.
       10 things extraordinary people say everyday

Cheers!

Surrounded by negativity

Dont know why recently Im very semangat-less.
Everything seems so dull, boring, lifeless.
Feels like Im bored of all this shit, all these fake peoples around, and twisted truth and biased rules.

Not sure whether my emotion is affected by politics in Malaysia.
As day by day its getting closer and closer to the election, with dirty politics happening everyday,
and unforeseen future and unpredictable results of election..
Seems like everything just so messed up and out of control..
So helpless.

URGHHH!!!!
I think I need a holidayyyyy!!!

Trust

Why is it so hard to trust on him?
Promises, trust, believes,
every of these is now broken into pieces after each time they're just about to heal,
and not to forget my heart too.

This process just kept being repeat,
what a fool am I to believe in those make up lies.

Karma will come to you,
If you continually treat them like this.

If you really really did it,
just wait for the day when Karma come and I shall sit and watch with popcorn in my hand.

Random thought

Life is amazing.
Everyone has their own life.
7 billion people on the earth, (yes! the latest data 2013 shows that the world is reaching 7 billion of population! > click here <)
7 billion ways of living life.
What's your story?
How do you live your life?
What is the purpose of your life?
Have you achieve your dream yet?
...

There's just so many things to be discovered in this world.
Life is short.
and I guess that's why time is so precious.
Things that you cannot hold onto forever is always precious.
In fact, everything in life is not lasting, including people we love, possession we own, etc.
It is like an adventurous journey, where the most exciting part is when one is experiencing and enjoying the process.
Anyway...

 :)

The article that I read, which I think is very inspiring, about a guy who traveled the world in 8 years straight.

PS. Found one interesting data, the number of people that had ever lived and you'll be surprise by the figure, which is 106 billion!)

In love with ah boys...

I guess everybody knows bout this movie,

AH BOYS TO MEN!!

So obviously,

I'd never expect it coming, this passionate, this restless, 

has lead me to a black hole...

Of falling for the ah boyss. 

They made me so happy, excited, admire ( my Alex Ong), & laugh my heart out. 

Especially My Sergeant Alex Ong.. A.k.a Tosh Zhang.

Why he so handsome and so cool la??

Why he so funny and cute la??

(This scene makes me laugh like hell.. they squeezes Ken's ass xD)

(Ah Boys to Men, 2013)

This has got to be the best movie for the year!!

Eventho its just a quarter of 2013 had passed.

Beside all the lengchais in the movie, 

I love how the movie taught us many lessons in life, for example,  never take our parent for granted, learn to be independent, care for friends, help each other out..& etc. Its a movie you'll definitely gain few precious values at the end of the show.

Many says part 2 is better than part 1,

I do agree with it. It has more hilarious part, and also shown how every character changes from the naive and childish boy to real men. :)

Go Ninja!!! 

This is the making of with every actor explain how they got chosen and how it all begin! :))

Enjoy!

Complain-er

Have you ever encounter those people,
whose always nagging, mumbling about the problems he/she faced,
telling you how unfortunate they are,
how unlucky they were to meet those kind of incidents,
why those things happens on them,
how life is so unfair to them.. and so on.

I seriously, HATING, BENCI, TAOYAN,
these kind of peoples.
They are like zombies that were so lifeless, so negative, so pale,
and was contaminated with the viruses that called - SPREAD-THE-NEGATIVITY-TILL-YOU-DIE.
Their aim is to infect everyone (or the earth) they meet with the virus,
thus such act is called - NEGATIVI-ZATION.

I just cant help, but to use my grenade, riffles, Ak-47,
to shoot them to death like the game i used to played ( the house of the dead).

But there will be an exception,
only to Nicholas Hoult,
This famous handsome-cute zombie that fell in love with his prey.

 (Warm Bodies, 2013)

PS. Please please I pray to the moon don't let those negativity-virus-infected zombies come near me! BTH!!

Orientation March 13 part 2

Okay,
so here goes my part 2 of orientation.
I think this is the intake that I've learnt most, with the members and partner I had.
And we did organised a gathering in HB3 for freshies and OCs..
the result was.. abit disappointing, frankly speaking.
I only saw 3 of my freshies turn up,
the other two, I was told that they came earlier but due to assignments n stuff then they went back. -_-
Why cant wait for me laaa? :(

And the "best" part is my partner never told me that he's coming late, for 30 mins,
and after he shows up for like 10 mins and he went to dinner (off-campus)with his friends.
How awesome is that??
and he left me hanging there, do the talking with freshies, and to answer them that their another OC have got something important to do with big *awkward* smile on my face. (yes we were told to help and cover each other but do he have a lil of sense of responsibility? If not what I've done is so not worth it. )

Some people always complaint that they always got offered the same job, but do they really have the heart and will to take the job they want ? Do you have a sense of responsibility and can make others look up to you? Before you complaint please think about it. Some more got ppl still dare to complaint after get the job.
(this is abit off topic)

I do understand everything, everyone have flaws and I should not be so skeptical to others.
Despite the imperfect part, the orientation is awesome. :)
My group got the First prize for their drama,
and they deserves the prizes! Every one gave their best in the performance, they do it wholeheartedly,
and I felt so proud of them!!

The best part of being an OC is, when you see these bunch of peoples that were awkward and shy and quiet in the first day, turn out to be really crazy, noisy, funny, and get along with each other really well and strive together to achieve the same aim ( during games / performance) . I've done my part, which is give them wonderful memory that they will cherish in the future, a bunch of friends/teammates when they were lonely and helpless in environment full of strangers.

LONGLIVE OC!! :))
GOOOO PASSION!!

Orientation March 2013

YAYYYYY!!!
YOU KNOW WAT???!!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY FOR ORIENTATION AND I WILL BE HAVING FRESHIES NIGHT IN 24 HOURS AND I FEEL SOOOOOOO 不舍得...

AND ITS 2.42AM NOW I CANT SLEEP EVENTOUGH I'M PHYSICALLY SUPER DUPER TIRED BUT MY MIND WAS HYPERACTIVE NOW!! (So I decided to blog bout my feeling )

What's on my mind now:

- Im so gonna miss my freshies. They are the best!! So active and is willing to speak n mix with each other well and sooo funny!
- Im so gonna miss every OC cuz i will back to boring daily ordinary life (lecture class - eat - sleep), no more dancing singing crazying laughing with these bunch of peoples in 3 months time. No numa numa, butterfly, we will get there and permata dunia.. :'(
- I am so thankful that I have this guy, Fuat in my group.. He made me grew up. Thank you. :)
- abit worry that how my group's drama will turn out... and group cheers... i really wanna know... >.<
- and also my own performance... today know my roles n story line and only starts practice tmr and after practice then directly perform.. OC are always spontaneous and flexible!
- Im glad that I learnt alot in this intake... every intake I did learn new things and meet new friend. ;)
- If im not sleeping nw... I will be really tired tmr BUT seriously i cant sleep.D:

till then!
Adeus!

PS. will come out with a mroe detailed of orientation part 2. =P

CNY 2013

Its been soooooo busy these days and I am now busier than having finals.
Right after CNY, I have no time to get some proper rest but instead having my schedule fully booked!

Until today, there wasnt a day where I am total free from jio n yumcha.
This is like hutang that I need to pay back, cause when they jio me at the time when I was having finals/mid terms/busy, I couldn't make it. And now it's payback time! =P

Anyway,
days like this feels like I'm not wasting time, rotting at home. (burning money at the same time T.T)
But after this coming monday,
that would be the last jio and I'm gonna start to do things that I've planned earlier!

Happy Holiday and Happy CNY~~~
yeah This year is really gonna be fabulous!!!

She says

She says,
“只要你是一个好女孩，一定会有人注意到你的。”

我会努力，
做一个更好的女孩。

4th feb 2013

Today is not my day.
I think i screwed my managerial statistics.
I know I know... its an easy subject, not core not major,
But all due to last minute revision,
seriously i underestimate it. :(
Guess Im that kind of person have to fall hard, to feel the pain, only then will change this stupid lazy attitude.
Pointer is sure going to fall.
Missing my first class, again.
Seriously?? Wong chooi yen YOU ARE SUCH A FOOL!

Overestimate myself at the same time.

Anyway, CNY is coming.
Din't hav the mood to celebrate it tho,
is it because we've had all grown up,
lots of other stuffs to think about, to plan, to solve,
not like a care-free happy-go-lucky kid anymore,
after school then play and indulge in CNY mood even a month before CNY!
or simply because im having finals?
*sigh* #grewup

Saw him today,
wearing his blue strips shirts.
I can always recognize him, even if i only get to peek at his back for one second,
I did remember what he wore before,
like this shirt he's wearing today.
I've seen other people wearing d exactly same shirt like his,
but no one can bring it out better than him. haha.
I think I'm crazy.
But  my mood are so calm now.
good good.

Anyway, tomorrow will be the best day!
Raise your glass for our brightest future of all!
"Aye Captain Yen!"
*blurrp*

Idea #x

Suddenly think of this idea,
Im gonna set up a camera each time i plan to scares/prank my friend.
So I can record down every second of the process,
and can replay it again and again,
it becomes the best memories!

I came up with this idea because just now,
I shout in my room out of nowhere because i think of something funny,
and my roommate, motherlicia is shocked!
she says she's almost collapsed on the floor,
but my voice isnt so loud.. hmm

anyway i think this is a fabulous idea,
which i can make 10 prank like that
and compile it into a video,
like this.

I can laugh for whole day, just watching those awesome video.

PS. Just for laugh is forever my favourite show!!!!!!!

PS (2): I can make a video bout my travel too, if i happen to travel to any country.. oso nice. eh hehe. :)

22.7.2013

Went out with sisters today.
Just suddenly thought of what she told me.
"he'll come find us once a year, only on that day."
Now recalling back,
yea, only on that day.

I've always been so outdated, and don't know what's happening.
I've always tot that he is my friend,
but now knowing he is just taking advantage of you to satisfy his own interest.
So probably this year,
I'm gonna tell him:

"FVCK OFF ASSHOLE!!!!"

AND I'M GONNA DARE MYSELF TO DO SO. =)


PS. Hi sis if u ever see this, I just wanna express my feeling. Since its almost impossible to post on his wall. hah.

Ponderous

I found that the way guai lou describe things / vocab are really hillarious.

Do you know what is ponderous?
it means heavy, lack of agility ; or the people that usually talk in a very slow and boring way.

and this is what I found in a page that they're trying to explain ponderous:

Ponderous also describes a person's manner, or their manner of speaking. If it does, this is a person you will want to avoid. They're solemn, speak slowly about things that are boring, and get to the punchline of a joke about seven years after anyone with half a brain has figured it out for themselves.

HAHAHA. This is far-neh!

=D

STARS

I like to look up to the sky during night time.
Especially when the sky is clear and when countless stars appear, shining and blinking.

It  feels like every problem is so small, so tiny, and is nothing.
I could just look at the stars..,
and leave my mind blank.
Amaze by how far is the stars, why do I see it, is there any living creatures like us on other planet, and so on.
It keeps my sorrow away,
At that moment.

心痛

为什么眼泪流干了，心还是会痛？

Cool

And I discovered it now,
actually not now, but some time ago,
I was thinking, is it person who are cool,
is more popular, more recognizable, more wide known by other?
is it important for one to be success?
is it crucial for one to know more cool people?
what is cool?
how do you define cool?
by the way they talk? the way they interact with people? the way they present themselves? the way they socialize, by all means.
So do people thinks you're cool enough to be part of them?
Do people actually look at your "cool-ness" in order to be friends/alliance with you?
Or some people don't actually give a damn on this so call "cool-ness-lization"?
But in this real world, in this world's practice that everyone faking everything, how cool you are represent what your level is.
So some people look at that and judge you.

And why do i think bout this?
not out of sudden, but it actually happened.
and i guess this guy only greet, talk to, or look at, certain people that are of the same level with him.

And i swear to myself, thanks to your ignorance and one day I shall make you kiss my ass.

Abandoned

Seems like this blog is abandoned by me..
anyway some little updates to myself.

New year New beginning.
I need to throw away all the negative thoughts in my mind.
throw away all the sadness, give it whether the people/things that is the root of the problem.

thing happens.
Sometimes it is really hard to ignore..
the more i tried to ignore, the more it came to my in the middle of the night, like wave in ocean..
I'm drown and its hard to breathe.
All i can do is cry out loud and it did makes me feel much better..

Good news is I can now let go of him, not 100%, but 50%.
it is an improvement tho!
but bad news is i've fallen for another one.
haha.
wish for the best, if it was meant to come it will come effortlessly.

Now I know, the most painful thing one can ever encounter, is
the person u love is hurting another person u love, and you cant do anything about it.

Now im 22. ( to be accurate is 21 years old and 1 and half month)
process of growing up, is inevitable and out of my control.
Somehow growing up for ur "heart" and "mind" is something you can control. and it is a decision that is up to you.
Some ppl are physically old but mentally childish, vice versa.

I rmb I started writing this blog when i was 18, and now its already the 5th year.
Time flies.
Remember the days, I set out with faith, I set out with dreams, I set out with passion.
It is now fading away.
I must't let time wash away my dreams.

Watched CZ12 yesterday.
I am so amazed by JackyChan despite what he did/say (had a affair n nvr recognize his daughter)
While watching the footage of behind the scene,
he got injured many times when filming,
still he did not give up, and continue the filming with his determination.
I rmb he says: ‘每个镜头都有可能是我最后一个镜头’
成龙的成功，不是没有原因的。
背后所吃的苦头，有谁知道？
他可以用失去性命的风险来换取每个完美的镜头，你愿意吗？你可以吗？
光鲜的外表下，在背后可是付出了多少常人所不及的努力换取的。

我真的有很多需要进步/学习的地方。

我要2013，成为我突破的一年。

Anyway, cheers to all my friends and family,
wish you all a great life, happiness filled and fortune 2013.
Safe and sound.
I love everyone around me.
:)